As Valentines Day quickly approaches, I can’t help but think of the angst or even dread that I used to have for the day. It seemed like everywhere I turned there was talk of the day that celebrated “love”. I felt like these were constant reminders of what I desperately wanted but had yet to obtain. During the year of 2017 I took time for myself to heal and grow and in 2018 I had resolved within myself that perhaps God was calling me to the single life. After dating and not finding a true match, I decided to step back and focus on the other things I wanted in life. I was working a decent job and was praying for a new home.
Then one day I received a message from a familiar face from social media asking to take me on a date. By this time, it was almost March, and I knew this person wasn’t interested in just having a date for Valentines Day. So, I prayed, and God gave me the green light to go on this date. Even though we had been friends on social media, we didn’t know each other. We lived in different cities, and I didn’t have anyone to ask to verify this person wasn’t a catfish (Lol).
The night before our scheduled date, I stood in the mirror getting ready for work the next day. I remember being unsure of what would come of this date, but I was sure that I wanted someone who made me feel “seen” and heard. In a moment of being determined to have a husband who understood me, I said “I want my husband to buy me black jellybeans”. I know most don’t care for them, but they happen to be my favorite. So, I said that and went on getting ready for work the next day.
The night of date had arrived, and I was unsure of what to expect. We decided to meet at the restaurant since this was our first date and didn’t know how things would go. I was familiar with the restaurant and the area so that gave me comfort along with the original confirmation from God. As I walked in, I saw my date standing there waiting for me. We greeted each other and he took me back to our seat that he had already taken there. When I got seated and situated, he handed me a gift bag and smiled. I opened the gift bag and found two bags of Black Jellybeans!!! When I saw the black jellybeans, I froze! I looked at him and looked back at the bag. I was thinking I can’t tell him what I said the night before about my future husband buying me black jellybeans!!! Then I finally came back to my body (lol) and thanked him for the gift and our night continued. God will give you the desires of your heart (Psalm 37:4) We laughed and talked and after a couple of hours he walked me to my car and said goodnight.
That man is now my husband of over 6 years and we have two children and one on the way. I am saying this to say, that God is interested in the “little things” in your heart that you desire. You don’t have to go into Valentines Day with dread or thinking love will never happen for you. Go to God in prayer, write down some things that you desire in a spouse and leave it in God’s hands. You are loved by the Almighty God who is a Good Father and He has the best in mind for you. Wait on Him and I promise you it will be worth the wait (Psalm 27:14).
-With Love
Rebecca